I've been hesitant to complain to many people about this pregnancy, particularly on this blog because I know some of my readers are amazing ladies who've struggled far more than I have to get and stay pregnant. Because it took me a bit of time to get pregnant this time I am really conscious of how blessed I am to even have the opportunity to feel the discomforts of pregnancy. To get the result of a sweet baby, there are emotional and physical challenges women have to accept. I get it, I really do.
And so when most people ask me how I'm doing, I say that I'm okay, a little uncomfortable, tired sometimes... blah, blah, blah. For someone who wanted so badly to have a baby, why on earth would I complain about any part of the process required to get there?
But this pain I'm having is not normal. Pulling and tugging, sometimes sharp pains in the sides of the abdomen are normal. Constant bone and joint pain in the pelvis is NOT. Over the last two weeks, and particularly in the last three days I've had increasingly terrible pain in my pelvis, the result of what is probably SPD. (Please click to read more.) I can't sit upright, roll over in bed, separate my legs, lift only one leg, or get up from laying down without serious, awful pain. This is not exactly common in pregnancy but it's not totally rare, either. The only remedy my OB suggested was a support belt (I'm sure my already tight clothing and tendency to be hot will LOVE having another layer underneath). Other information I've read suggests chiropractic care, which of COURSE my insurance does not cover.
It's hard to admit that my body is failing SO early in this pregnancy. 16 weeks are left, and if I feel this poor or worse until September I will be at my wits end. I have so much left to do this summer with the youth, some of which requires me to be active. The only somewhat comfortable position at this point is semi-reclined on the couch. Despite my desires for a breezy pregnancy full of puppies and sunshine, I'm already pretty discouraged. And then I think of my internet and real-life friends who've had so many struggles and losses, and oh my stars, I have to SHUT UP about me, me, me.
And so when most people ask me how I'm doing, I say that I'm okay, a little uncomfortable, tired sometimes... blah, blah, blah. For someone who wanted so badly to have a baby, why on earth would I complain about any part of the process required to get there?
But this pain I'm having is not normal. Pulling and tugging, sometimes sharp pains in the sides of the abdomen are normal. Constant bone and joint pain in the pelvis is NOT. Over the last two weeks, and particularly in the last three days I've had increasingly terrible pain in my pelvis, the result of what is probably SPD. (Please click to read more.) I can't sit upright, roll over in bed, separate my legs, lift only one leg, or get up from laying down without serious, awful pain. This is not exactly common in pregnancy but it's not totally rare, either. The only remedy my OB suggested was a support belt (I'm sure my already tight clothing and tendency to be hot will LOVE having another layer underneath). Other information I've read suggests chiropractic care, which of COURSE my insurance does not cover.
It's hard to admit that my body is failing SO early in this pregnancy. 16 weeks are left, and if I feel this poor or worse until September I will be at my wits end. I have so much left to do this summer with the youth, some of which requires me to be active. The only somewhat comfortable position at this point is semi-reclined on the couch. Despite my desires for a breezy pregnancy full of puppies and sunshine, I'm already pretty discouraged. And then I think of my internet and real-life friends who've had so many struggles and losses, and oh my stars, I have to SHUT UP about me, me, me.
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I am also very hesitant to complain since I know many of my readers are still in the trenches themselves and really don't want to hear it.
However, I do think you have every right to vent about how you feel. It's your blog, and no one has to stick around if they see a post going somewhere they're not comfortable with. You shouldn't have to feel completely censored.
Oh if I only had a blog when I was pregnant with the girls. They put you through it all when you are pregnant and I am so sorry you have to go through all of this. Feel free to vent to us...we all love you and support you! I have been through tons of problems with my pregnancies and I only wish I could do it all again..but alas..money and life have other options for us. Anyway...I wish I could be there to help you out as you go through this. I understand being in constant pain...I have been there..maybe not the exact thing but I had very similar symptoms with other problems. Both girls LOVED sitting on my sciatic nerve and just dancing on it! I really hated having our ONLY bathroom upstairs! My legs were so swollen by the 6 or 7th month that I could barely walk! I wish you relief and soon. Good luck!
Oh and by the way..I hope your hubby has been giving you back rubs daily! You deserve it!
Sorry to hear you're in a lot of pain. I wish you comfort and hope you can find some relief for it to get you through the next 16 weeks. Love you!
I'm so sorry that you're in so much pain -- that sounds really terrible. As much as it would be hot and uncomfortable, the support belt sounds like it might help.
I think the puppies and rainbows are a myth.
I found your blog from The Pioneer Woman's site. Just wanted to say I love the band Downhere too :)
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